Where Do I Start

Mmmmm where do I start? 🤔 So between last week and today a lot has gone on! Two major arguments in one day!! One was during sex, who does that? Anywho, yesterday I made a comment leaving him feeling as though the emptiness in my life is his fault! "I don't feel fulfilled in this marriage!"

Him: "Why do I have to share in your crummy music! (My slow jams) Why can't you find someone else to do it or enjoy it by yourself (which I do). If you wanna go to a concert, why do I have to go?"

Me: "Because you are my husband!" 

Was I wrong! 🤔🤔 

I try to give respect where respect is due! Try not to neglect anyone or hurt their feelings! But mine are hurt!! That's life right? 

I don't put on my "Big Girl Draws" on very much but lately I have and this is what I get! Honesty...humph. 

So the night goes on and the advice he gave was to "live". Do what makes me happy but "Do Something!" Don't just sit here doing nothing! 🤔 

I think I am trying to find happiness in others instead of looking within myself OR do I just want to share what makes me happy with others!! 🤗🤗🤗 

I don't think I am hard person to please!! I don't care for rejection but it happens and I have to deal with it and move on!! That's a work in process! But when rejection comes from your spouse-that's like a brick being thrown in your face! 😖😖😖 

Having something in common means SO MUCH to me! 🌹🌹❤️👍🏾 I love to feel a connection with those I meet! Something that makes me feel or say "I wanna see....or look forward to seeing....!" Ya feel me! Lol 

Maybe I have to learn to do things on my own and meet those who want to participate along the way!! But where do I start?....somewhere right?! 🤔🙋🏾😕