My Attitude

What have I notice about myself lately, my attitude is changing...not for the better

I am always angry, bitter, resentful, annoyed, pissed. Most of the time I don't wanna be bothered! 

I am starting to put a shield around my heart!! It's starting to feel very little each day. As of now I am going thru the motions of life!!! 

Doing what I have to do to get thru each day!!! 

I desire

Just because someone is married doesn't mean they desire that person! 

My desires are starving to be fed! But I have to hold off on that one! 

What I desire:

Someone's touch to make me melt!

When I look in their eyes I am 100000% submissive! Open like 7-eleven 

Someone to take me to ecstasy 

To be loved, properly

To be held

To be Shown compassion

To be in love 

Girl Gone

So my " R&B buddy" no longer exist! I ride and sing alone!!! 

Reality is setting in! I sing to no one anymore! Ha sad I am, sad!!! 

He thinks I'm cheating

So he thinks I'm cheating!!! Had a convo a week ago, a heart to heart if you will! Told me how he thinks!! When I'm out and I take a long time or say I'm going to one of my crafts stores, he thinks I'm elsewhere!!! So I ask with who, he says he doesn't know, anyone!! That's some sh*t!!! He wants to be  back in the "game" I'm good with that but want me to do it first!! Ha!! This man is a real joke!! Yup..time to go!!

I got my notary business, looking for an apartment, so expensive tho, and need a car!! Yeah I can't do this! 

My soul is empty 

I'm unhappy 

I feel lonely

All of who I am not!!! 

Need a Side Chick

So hubby is doing all he can to make me happy, even was able to get us another vehicle! Great! Now looking for us to move and gonna get assistance with that!! Great! Still don't want to be married to him! 

If I am gonna stay to compensate for his hard work and changes, some changes! I need a side chick to cover what he can't!!!

What I need

I need to made love to by someone qualified

An occasional hi

Sometimes an occasional hi would be nice!!