Sunday, July 31, 2016

Am I missing it????

How does one proceed to love me? What am I missing? 
What do I need?
I still feel empty!! 

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Waste of tears

Considering how i have been feeling lately, thinking I should stop wasting tears and staying up sleeplessly! Seriously doubt the same is done because of me!!! 

What am I to do with these emotions!!!
#DailyPain 

Love this song!!!

LUTHER VANDROSS LYRICS

Play the Luther Vandross Quiz
"Never Too Much"

I can't fool myself, I don't want nobody else to ever love me
You are my shinin' star, my guiding light, my love fantasy
There's not a minute, hour, day or night that I don't love you
You're at the top of my list 'cause I'm always thinkin' of you

I still remember in the days when I scared to touch you
How I spent my day dreamin' plannin' how to say I love you
You must have known that I had feelings deep enough to swim in
That's when you opened up your heart and you told me to come in

Oh, my love
A thousand kisses from you is never too much
I just don't wanna stop

Oh, my love
A million days in your arms is never too much
I just don't wanna stop

Too much, never too much, never too much, never too much

Woke up today, looked at your picture just to get me started
I called you up, but you weren't there and I was broken hearted
Hung up the phone, can't be too late, the boss is so demandin'
Opened the door up and to my surprise there you were standin'

Well, who needs to go to work to hustle for another dollar
I'd rather be with you 'cause you make my heart scream and holler
Love is a gamble and I'm so glad that I'm winnin'
We've come a long way and yet this is only the beginnin'

Oh, my love
A thousand kisses from you is never too much
(Never too much, never too much, never too much)
I just don't wanna stop

Oh, my love
A million days in your arms is never too much
(Never too much, never too much, never too much)
And I just don't wanna stop

Oh, my love
A thousand kisses from you is never
(Never too much, never too much, never too much)
I just don't wanna stop

Oh, my love
A million days in your arms is never too much

Monday, July 25, 2016

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Need to move forward.....but how

I am a place in my life where I am don't want to be...yes here we go again!!!! 

How do I move forward..from what?
Well, let's see! Although my body is home, I am emotionally and mentally elsewhere all the time! A place where I rather be but there have not been an invite! 

Compatibility is such a key to success in a relationship without it I don't think you can really thrive! I think it would always be a situation where you are always tolerating each other with little if any enjoyment! I don't want to tolerate anyone I want to fully enjoy them, then and only then can you FULLY give yourself to them! 

Two Saturday's ago, I "ran away" yes I am grown and I ran away from home! Just felt tired!!! And although I came back, where else would I go right!!! I still feel like I don't want to be here! 

When I talk, touch, kiss someone I want that tingly feeling you get, those butterflies, that feeling of I can't wait to see you! I don't have that!!! What happened? Where did it go, or did I ever have that!!! I'm gonna go crazy or crazier if I don't get that! I've never felt so empty in my life!!! What is it gonna take??? 


Friday, July 22, 2016

You are...Charlie Wilson

I wanna cry whenever I hear this song....


CHARLIE WILSON LYRICS

Play "You Are"
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"You Are"

Butterflies is what I feel inside
And every time is like my first time oo wee
And I can't never find the words to say
You're the perfect girl
You were made for me
It's so easy to love you baby
We're compatible, incredible and natural we are
And girl I've never felt this way before
From the bottom of my heart
Baby girl I just wanna tell you that you are

The reason I love the reason I trust
God sent me an angel
You are the best in the world
A wonderful girl
Knowing you by my side brings tears to my eyes

Baby
Girl you had me from the moment I looked into your eyes
And I knew you were an angel but you were in disguise
Tell me how could I be so lucky
That you'd fall down from Heaven for me
Oo baby

Some people search a lifetime and never find a true love oo wee
But Heaven cared enough for me to give me you
And now our hearts they beat together
Standing stronger here forever
You and I (you and I)
You and I (you and I)
I just want you to know you are

The reason I love the reason I trust
God sent me an angel
You are the best in the world
A wonderful girl
Knowing you by my side
And a man ain't supposed to cry
But girl you are
The only woman I make love to
The reason I come home at night
(Girl you are)
You're all that I need in my life
And it almost feel
It's not fair
Loving you I don't care
You are (you are)
You are

You are the reason I love the reason I trust
God sent me an angel
You are the best in the world
A wonderful girl (you're a wonderful girl)
Waoh Oh
You are
(Baby you are) you're all that I am
(You are) You're all that I need
(You are) Baby heaven has sent you to me
(Baby you are) the one for me
(You are) the air that I breathe
(You are) baby you are you are (oohh yeahh)
You are, you are everyday to me baby
You're everything oh baby
Baby you are...

Thursday, July 7, 2016

You Bring Me Joy

"You Bring Me Joy" "You Bring Me Joy"




You bring me joy
When I'm down
Oh, so much joy
When I lose my way your love comes smiling on me

I saw your face
And then I knew
We would be friends
I was so afraid when your eyes, they'd say 'come to me'

So I'd say to you
"Can we talk for a while? "
You'd say "alright"
When you love me, I smile
I feel you hands and you feel mine
You bring me joy

You bring me joy
Don't go too far away
If I can't see your face, I will remember your smile

But can this be right
Always said we'd be friends
I get lonely sometimes and I'm mixed up again
'Cause you're the finest thing I've seen in all my life
You bring me joy

My joy, my joy
Oh baby, this is gonna be what you wanted life to be
I just love you, I just love you, can't you see
That you're the finest I've seen in all my life
You bring me joy

My joy... you're my joy
My joy... my, my joy

Thank you, baby, thank you, baby
I just love you, baby
When I lose my way, your love comes smiling on me

In Limbo

What are you suppose to do when you feel like your life is in limbo. What I mean by that is you just exist. Don't feel like you have a true purpose, you're just there! 

I feel caged and trapped, especially when it comes to how I feel! If something is wrong with me my husband says "What's wrong with you now!!" Mmmm what's wrong with me NOW!!! Seriously - that doesn't exactly make me want to open up! Therefore, I don't! So I turn to blogging! Doesn't really help but I get to talk about it! 

Other feelings I have I've been keeping them inside! It's killing me to do so! I tried calling to see a psych but they want insurance which I don't have at the time. Sometimes I just want to just walk until I can't walk anymore. Where would I go, I have no idea. Just somewhere to clear my head. Because if I took the car my daughter might report it stolen! Lol 

You shouldn't be in a relationship that makes you think of suicide just to get out of it! 

My sister recently move to PA, she said I am welcome to come and she'll kidnap me if she needs to! Told her sounds like a plan!

Don't know how to balance out these feelings I have! I need someone who gets me, who wants to take care of me properly, not just financially but emotionally and mentally! Right now, I think we are both just going thru the motions! I am tired of going thru the motions!! Something has to give, I just don't know what or how just yet!! 

Is there someone for ME??? Living like this is driving me insane, literally!!! 

Thanks for listening!!! 

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Crush

I thought of you when I heard this song: 

You call me on a lazy afternoon
Asking me what I'm up to
Let's find something to do
Baby I'd be down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down
You know I'd be down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down

I see you arriving in your car
Jet black Mercedes, built in the 70s
Classic like you and me
I'll be coming down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down
I'll be down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down

I feel a little rush
I think I've got a little crush on you
I hope it's not too much
But babe when I'm with you, I hear it
My heart singing
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la-la /x2

Honestly I shouldn't waste time no more
Cause all these little boys you're chasing, did they break your heart?
I know you've been down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down
I won't let you down, down, down
Down, down, down, down, down, down

I feel a little rush
I think I've got a little crush on you
I hope it's not too much
But babe when I'm with you, I hear it
My heart singing
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la-la /x2

I see you the same
I see it in the way that you behave around me
And I can't tell
What we have is different from anyone else
Cause you stop doing what you're doing
When I call you come to me running
And I would do the same for you
So tell me that you feel it too

I feel a little rush
I think I've got a little crush on you
I hope it's not too much
But babe when I'm with you, I hear it
My heart singing
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la-la /x2

I think I've got a crush, babe
Crush on you too
Feel a little rush, baby
And I feel it too
I think I've got a crush, babe
Crush on you too
Feel a little rush, baby